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its been a while since i have posted but i had a bf for a while then was a slut and now im poz. i just found out today and i cant say its shocking, but still not the best news to hear. i have dealt with a scare or two so my mind has gone through similar emotions b4. but i know it hasn't set in yet. either i just contracted it or im one of those that never got a fuck flu. i just hope i dont get sick on my birthday camping trip in a couple weeks.

on a lighter note there are plenty of hot poz guys ive had my eyes on for a long time its like a whole new group of guys i had always put off b4. and like i have said b4, now that im poz i have one less thing to worry about.

i know im not sexy all the time, but its my blog damn-it

well i guess i better start blogging more, lots of other dirty blogs have been popping up. been in a lil rut lately, still swappingg cum with plenty of guys but it just isnt feeling right. dont know if its the moon cycles or lack of cali sun but i just havent been as horny, i just go through the motion of fb's calling and i give them my hole or new a4a hookups that wanna meet and fuck around. nothing has really excited me or got my blood pumping to my cock. i kinda blame it on my small-ish metro(2.5 million) and the close-ish proximity to sf(kink-zone-usa). even tho the economy sucks, my job/service remains in high demand, and i often watch my companies open position posts for my dream job in a larger area with travel. because i have figured out either im just gonna fuck everyone in my city a few times and be bored or i can move to somewhere bigger and be a bigger slut. granted i would miss all of my friends here but i cant shake the desire to just sell my house(good luck with that in cali) and move to ???. age is def lingering on my mind also, tonight was my dad's 50th soon enough ill be 30, which i dont really fear, i feel im aging like good wine, must me the nor-cal in me. but being bored i often look to my fantasies and the inner desire to be a no questions asked slut. i know im on a thin line looking over to the other side wanting the slightest tempation to tip me over, but it still just isnt there for me. sorry for anyone looking for a dirty post but im in a wine/soma expressive mood. i will say that ive taken and/or given atleast one load a day with a few fb's for the last couple weeks. more to cum ;)

not the typical gay post

since ive been traveling to the wonderful city that is fresno, ca i have deposited 4 load and taken 4. pretty vers if i do say so myself. there have been the small latino bottoms (who would have guessed in cen-cal), the (city) college frat guys who are "curious", and the fugly ex-jock guy with 10yo pics and an extra 40lbs i turned away, and then there is this married str8 couple, yes str8. they popped up on craiglist right above my post "traveller looking for a hung top". they were looking for someone who wanted to get fucked by a 9" hung muscle stud while his wife watched-ASAP. wtf ill take the cock, and ill admit it im a sex addict ill do the wife too if she wants, i still remember how to get a pussy off from high school. so they come over to the hotel and they end up being very nice as well as hot. we strip and he just starts licking my ass and then shoving his cock down my throat. all the while his wife is on the bed egging him on. eventually i want that 9" uncut meat in my hole and he whips out the sillycone lube(hate it) and a rubber. i can understand they are married, after the inital fuck and grind he pulls out and rips the condom off and asks " do you mind? i hate fucking with these." no objections from me. he continues to pumel my hole and eventually his wifey scoots up so her pussy is right in my face as im on all fours. cant say i enjoyed it as much as a hot boy pussy but it was a hole to shove my toungue in. i worked her as i got my pussy worked and eventually he got under me and i fucked her while i got fucked and her hubby then pulled out of my ass and dp her hole with me. she went insane, porn star screaming and begging for both of our cum. well i was close but held off until he was back in my ass. at that point i couldnt hold back he blew his nut in my butt and i blew a fat load up inside her. afterwards they were totally cool no regret or rushing to leave like most 3ways ive been in. tonight they called and wanted a repeat, and did we ever. i got more cum in my ass and this time i bred him while he choked his girl(whatever not my place to question).

youngin

last night i came home buzzed(surprise, surprise) and logged onto a4a and this 18yo i have been chatting up for a few days msged me right away looking for some dick. his profile said safe only but i was horny and he was close so i got to his place and he meets me outside and brings me into the bottom of the high water victorian house(kinda like a basement) and tells me we have to fuck down here because his parents are sleeping upstairs. that kinda thrilled me, enough to throw him down on the spare bed and rip all his clothes off. he wasnt wearing undies and was already hard and dripping precum. my mouth went right to his hole and i licked that smooth ass till it was nice and wet and he had spun around to slobber on my cock. when i say slobber i mean just that he wasnt really sucking or even putting my dick in his mouth. eventually we rolled over and he was on top of me rubbing my cock in his ass crack and he told me he had never been fucked by a cock so thick. but i was slapping his hole with my head until he was ready to sit on my dick. he asked for a condom so i put one on, then he tried to push back on my hardon but he was so tight it was almost painful for me and before he even got my head in the condom broke. he applogised and then told me he had never been fucked b4, he was a virgin. i dont know how i attract these ones. but he said he wanted to try again on his back, w/o another condom he said to just not cum in him, perfect. i flipped him over and ate his hole some more and then i pushed into him some let him relax then eased in all the way. i could see tears in his eyes and he was kinda pushing my thighs back but not hard enough to make me think he was in too much pain. i rested there deep in his gut for a min then i could tell he relaxed enough to start fucking slowly. long story short i only fucked him for a min b4 he had me pull out, and he just jerked himself and me off at the same time. i need to stay away from these ones, they are too much work for not a lot of fun. but damn he was cute.

what ive been up to

30 min ago my roomie left, 5 min after calling a fuckbud thats down the street i was sucking on his real 8" cock, i get on my back with my head over the edge of the bed and he fucks my throat while he fingers gobs of spit in my ass. when he thinks im properly lubed i turn over and he mounts my ass and fucks me good and hard on my back, but i know what he wants so soon enough i roll around onto my stomach and he leans into me fucking short deep thrusts, and since ive been working my ass out with my p-spot toy i can really grip that dick and soon enough he yelling that hes breeding my ass. now that i have a roomie and its harder to have guys over but with him so close, hung, and toned(hes been working out a lot) i ave a feeling im gonna have his sperm in my ass often.

i have been lazy about writing out another hookup last weekend. i came home from happy hour early (9pm) so roomie was gone and this black guy who i have hooked up with b4 msged me. not sure if ive talked about him on here b4 im not as organized with fake hookup names as some bloggers are. he is 32 ripped 5'10ish and a massive thick cock. he also loves to rim as deep as he can and as wet as he can for like a hour, when he does fuck its a nice slow deep fuck so i can feel every inch and twitch of his dick. it drives me crazy with lust and i have came a few times w/o touching my dick while he is filling me with that beautiful cock. i can feel every pulse and shot of cum he unloads in me every time, its amazing. the reason i dont hookup with him more is one. time. two. i know he fucks a lot of guys bare only. three. i know this isnt the best reason for many reasons but hes black and in my head that screams higher risk.

although ive figured out that fucking with a condom is almost not worth it for me, im still very afraid of hiv. ive alway put my instints to good use and been very selective in my bare hookups and even used my poz friends to point out guys that lie/dont disclose( which is a huge percentage) but i figure that sooner or later it will happen and i would have plenty of support, but i want to be suprised about it and i dont want to infect another person unknowingly. that is my number one fear, i can look back on my own shortcomings but to pass that on to someone else would devistate me.

deep thoughts

yesterday as i was headed back from the inauguration to cali on my 2-stop southwest flight, i had some thoughts that i thought id share.

most pressing is that the guys from brokestraightboys.com are gonna be at a club in town tonight and i was thinking that 90% of people in porn have to be broke. i mean why else do it? if your hot your not gonna have a problem getting laid, if your an exhibitionist you have xtube, and if your just into the popularity im sure you still think the money is well worth it. reguardless im glad people do it because i love porn.

on the plane this lady was reading the twilight book and the glare from her reading light was bugging my while i watched my ipod touch movies. but i thought about the similarities between the chick loving the hot vampire and gay guys love for barebacking. both are in love with something dangerous, both have issues with conversion, and both involve hot guys ;)

lastly, i wish i could have been alive b4 hiv but in a world like today where homos are out most everywhere, yes there would still be plenty of ghonnaherpashyphilitis bugs out there but those in my head are far less scary in my head.

single lady part dos

right after i finished my last post a hot 20yo otter msged me on a4a. he was into a few of my many kinks, so he came to the hotel. my hole was still lubed from the fuck a hour earlier. this boy shows up with oils so we can get slicked up and wrestle around then he pinned me down and shoved his bare cock deep in my ass. he really knew how to work his dick in a bottom for a 20yo. he then flips me around and looks into my eyes as he blows his load deep in my ass, i felt every pulse of his cock. he laid on top of me buried in my hole then we got up and showered where he pissed all over me including bending me over as spraying right on my hole. after the shower and some light convo i was still horny so i spread my legs and he mounted me again, fucking me till he coated my guts again with a cock twitching orgasm.

i really needed that. left the load in all night and fingered a lil in the morning jerking off with a lil of his cum.